1st Teaching Gig

Tomorrow I teach my first ever yoga class. As a girl who is shy and terrified of public speaking I am about ready for a nervous break down. I have gone through many processes in my head about this, and all of which lead me back to it's something I have to do. Fear or no. I truly feel like I was meant to teach yoga.

I have been practicing regularly for over 5 years. 3 of those years were with instructors. 2 of those years I have been developing my own practice. I have learned to feel my body and do what it needs each day. I put no time limits on my own practice but generally I go for about 20 to 40 minutes. It's easy to read my own body and let it do what comes naturally. Some days I spend all of my time upside down. Some days I'm twisting.

Suddenly I will be responsible for other people. Developing a fully range of motion for a group of people. Developing 45 to 60 minute classes. My first class will be an intro to yoga. I can do this but in my gut I feel like I'll probably need some kind of Anaphylaxis shot due to throat closing up. I wonder if I take an EpiPen if they can bring me back to life after I pass out.

Stress/fear is such a wonderful thing. Did you know that it is the exact same chemical that produces fear that creates exhilaration? I'm wondering how you switch that chemical reaction to turn to thrill instead of fear. Seems possible. Is it self-confidence?

I have to stop here and go to my day job. I hope to be busy enough to not over think it and will make it though the day with no added stress.

P.S. Big love to all of my friends willing to let me practice my classes on them over the next few days. Yes, pictures will be taken!